Thud...Thud...

Thud...Thud...

I prick my skin ,
feel the blood flow thick yet thin.
can you feel my pain?
after all this time, can you tell what i think?

my heart so heavy, words suppressed,
the grief so real, all pretense undressed.
the beats of my heart break rhythm,
i wonder if you feel the unrest.

there is no dramatized cry of pain,
no tears of wanting, no feelings spent in vain.
a coldness so alien, yet so very mine,
a person i know, different behind the line.

No longer i know what i need,
not now, i dont really know how you feel.
i wish you would come and try to heal,
do me this loving deed.

Against all i still wait for you,
wanting, watching, stopping my heart from going blue.
hurry back, for i dont what may happen to me and you,
im waiting, missing you.

Insanity Bite

Insanity Bite

Through the night into the morn,
all day long, all thats right will be wrong.
to shut us up they will sing,
scream and kill , madness it will bring.

I hate you, you hate me,
i point the finger, you eat me.
strain your eyes in the pitch black and see,
all thats right is wrong to be.

mess with my mind and yours is set,
dry day and you will be soaking wet.
do u understand what criteria was met?
i cut my heart and your soul is whet.

this rhyme is good, a cure for me,
insanity rains on my heart, wild and free.
reach for me and feel its will,
help me stalk, be my kill.

Smile

The wind, it blows, its gentleness be fierce,
a tender rush or hurtful sting.
i try to walk, head up high,
burning eyes bring fourth a cry.

I do keep walking, straight on through,
my eyes are red, the tears do blind.
i wonder if it hurt at all,
doest it feel ugly and small?

this hurtful wind reminds me of u,
of how, once u were gentle too.
i see the gate and break into a run,
hurting, screaming, wanting to be held by u.

i see them coming, smiles as wide as can be,
i dive behind a bush, pray they dont see.
slowly,slyly a hand is slipped,
gently firmly, it is gripped.

my ears are ringing, a crack is heard,
my hand so heavy, falls to my side, dead.
i get up to walk away, i hear a scream,
there is a smile, mine or hers?

My Blood And Me

Flowing away on its way,
unbothered by the hands of time.
no longer a part of what it used to be,
faster now, seeping out from me.

without it there are no ties,
neither mine nor to the cries.
lost on its path to glory,
this is just an unheard story.

i never cared, when u were there,
now i see you everywhere.
is this your love for me, or is this hate?
the infinite binding that does break.

you were mine, me still yours,
without you there be no ours.
the distance grows, u go away,
standing here with weakening knees , i sway.

you cant be back, cuz i'l be gone,
what was there, now undone.
forever were we meant to be,
just the two of us, my blood and me.

Moving Away

I reach across the empty fields of blackness,
over the stretches of my mind.
reaching out to grab hold,
but further away you have gone.

i strain my neck and stretch my arms,
im trying hard to get back with you.
my mind is ringing with these little alarms,
i wonder if i will break into pieces too.

they say that people move apart,
they say that everything will fade to dark.
im standing here watching u, going away, so far.
my thoughts revolving around our spark.

if you go so far, will u be back?
if you do, will i be gone?
i hope we dont lose sight of us,
i wonder if we may end in dust?

Back

I write again, its bout time,
I hold the pen,i am scared.
I wonder if i'l be fine,
A thumping heart,so full of dread.

I start and stop, my hands are shaking,
I feel the old me awaking.
I open my arms to welcome you back,
Write once more, there is nothing you lack.

I rite for me, more than you,
My head is screaming, it is true.
But who am i to lie to you?
I rite to try and give back what is due.

To all my friends and those to be,
I once stopped to rite, leaving this empty.
To all of u and to you too,
I'm back to bug your life for good.

A Little Me

Mocking, laughing , pointing at me,
Unfelt sweet words of care.
A stranger with all those i know,
Trying to hide it, but it always will show.

Rising blood lust, self hate,
I will hurt me, so u will escape.
Not wanting, yet i will go to pain,
Burning hate and rivers of blood i'l gain.

A little love and bit more of hate,
If you want to save me, your just late.
I dont love to live, not like this,
But i cant take this change.

All i want is to sleep,
Pile up and burn in my hate heap.
Im just a boy who wants some fun,
You still wanna know why i point a gun?

Wiseman

You keep talking of legend and lore,
Oh do shut up! your such a bore.
Open your mouth and let out a roar,
Close your nose and try to snore.

Take that sword and learn to dance,
No, dont get into your freaky trance.
Vice and versa is your life,
Its nice in bed with your wife.

On and on and on you drone,
why make me pay without a loan?
I crawl and claw out of the room,
Over your head, a dancing broom.

Hug and hump and hog yourself,
Put your body on a shelf.
I'l take her home, your bonnie lass,
Dont you worry, i hid your head in the trash.

Blood Rose

Drip - drop, drip - drop it hits the floor,
Mixing with unholy flour.
I mix and ground and put it in a mold.
It shines brighter than a bar of gold.

I leave the wound to drip and bleed,
Roll out the barrel of old mead.
The tables set and the bride is here,
Unseen darkness coming near.

I get the knife, you hold my head,
The unheard words have been said.
The knife is through and i am dead,
On me they lay the flower of dread.

Schizo

I scream and shout cuz im scared,
You look cute, long legs wide spread.
Yet dont lie to me, I aint dead,
Close your eyes and I'l fill you with dread.

Dont come to me, you smell of sweat,
Theres blood and guts in your bread.
A little awkward, yet dont swear,
Pointless convo's , Crappy wear.

Dont do the things i do like,
Mess your hair without a spike.
Scream in joy and shout in pain,
Have your bath in the rain.

I'm messing with your head,
Cold dark nights, heavy as lead.
Now quit this game and look at me,
Open your eyes and let me see.